*luc^KY^_ girl*

If u realize..

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

...

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

SOMETIMES LOVE JUST AIN'T ENOUGH...

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have sombody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
and I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
and I don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

爱情..

你今天爱他，他也爱你，但又有谁可担保你会永远爱他，他也会永远爱你？没有受伤？没有失望？有谁可以很肯定的告诉你？爱情是个不可靠的东西。。你今天不爱他了，遇见了新的他，和他分手。。和新的他在一起，觉得幸福，开心？明天，你能确定你对新的他一心一意，或是新的他对你一心一意吗？那么他呢？自己一个人吗？还在伤心吗？后悔没有好好地珍惜你吗？还是也有了新的伴路了，可以取代你的位置了？

至于与新的他呢？真心爱你吗？你又了解新的他有多少？你又会不会是因为新鲜感而一时冲动呢？一旦走久了自然而然会发现一个人的缺点，习惯了和他在一起的感觉，一举一动。。你又可不可以接受新的他的缺点呢？你会不想念当时的恋情？与他在一起的生活？你又会不会拿来做比较？其实，爱情可不可以容纳三个人？三角恋真的只有痛苦吗？到最后。。。也许，你也不会和他或新的他在一起。。。朋友,想清楚吧..

一旦决定了,就要勇敢的走..加油..

life..

I'm bc to Kb d!at last..finish exam,this time can enjoy d..this sem is the most suffered..after this,I'l go for practical lo..luckily vf three of my ji mui geda,n one of my kbgeng,one joker..I think will be quite enjoy..haha..no,my fren said scared the place will collapse,coz v going there to work..ppl normal after receive our help bcum abnormal..but I think ppl there will be happier..they will laugh vf us 2geda..",) dunno y I feel myself bcum happier now,I'm bc!I laugh as usual,really happy this few days,weeks,month..I do what I like,go where I wish,laugh when wanna laugh,cry when wanna cry..very happy..really happy..I plan so many things vf my jimui n frenz..my jimui said I'm so playful..everytime when they said wanna go where to play,shop or kaikai,I wil be the one who excited 1st..:( ya,I admit..I like to "play"..I like freedom..very happy when go out kaikai..this is so called extraversion lo..I think if ask ppl who kno me,who m I?extra or intro..everyone will vote for extra..haha..my jimui buy me n mayture a cake that nite after exam,although my b.day oledi pass,but they still not forget to buy me a cake,n they try to buy me the cake that I said I like,but din get..nvm,gals..10s!really surprised..n think bc v r so happy n close..I saty vf one of my jimui in the hse,only two of us,one person in each room,that's a flat,so hv two rooms.Two of my jimui stay in the same row,n one more live in that area too,5 min walking distance..mummy(one of my jimui) will cook for us sometimes,else v go take dinner at nearby restaurant..sometimes v make steamboat,mini party..then all jimui will geda in my hse,even overnite there..v will kove my bed or xiaoxiao bed into one room,v z 2geda..chit chat b4 z,laugh b4 z..so happy~v do things 2geda..everytime when I wanna cum bc Kb,v will hug hug 1st b4 I leave there..feel so warmth..like this kind of frenship..of course wont forget my kbgeng..last time used to z 2geda,although now less d,but I still miss that time n I think will hv chance again..v haven play mahjung 2geda!Although me,wai n rere play d..haha..rule by ourselves..very flexible..:p my life in KL..I'll smile vf happiness when I think bc..10s guys for giving me so much sweet memories..I miss my childhood frens..how r u al there?everyone doing own things..still keep in touch..well,hope will meet them one day..

miss u..

2mrw is my big day..Utar give me two exams as my birthday present,so I cant actually go out to celebrate..:,( my frens all gonna sit for exam too..but they plan to celebrate the next day after our exam..well,10s dear ji mui..wei fly back from KB 2day coz plan to celebrate for me 2mrw,but unfortunately,our banana dun wan go out coz she has to sit for exam the next morning,.she haven finish study..no choice..I understand.Think bc few years ago..my frens bring me to PCB(one of the beach at Kel),then v sit 2geda under the moon..they sing birthday song for me..do our things 2geda..now one of the fren is not here d..few months ago,but still cant get hin out of my mind,dunno how is him now..the environment thr same as us here?meet any frens?still remember my birthday?Just now my ah sou sms me, she said 2mrw whole m'sia celebrate for me le,coz it's a public holiday..haha..I hv to make a new wish le 2mrw,wat m I going to wish for?hehe..2nite hv to think it properly..2mrw going to be 22 d lo..cant wear the "key" d lo..well,happy birthday to me,mandy..study smart ya!hehe..

I dun wan to run away..

Hey baby

when we are together

doing things that we love

Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven

feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl.

I just need you to know girl

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,

No promises.

Baby, now I need to hold you tight,

I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together,

doing things that we love.

Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven,

feeling high

I don’t want to let go, girl.

I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away,

baby you’re the one I need tonight,

No promises.

Baby, now I need to hold you tight,

I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away,

I want to stay forever,

thru Time and Time..

No promises

I don’t wanna run away,

I don’t wanna be alone

No Promises

Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,

No promises.

Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,

No promises.

Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight..

nice nice..

人变了心,言而无信.
人断了情,无谓伤心.
我一直聆听,
我闭上眼睛,
不敢看你的表情.
满天流星,无穷无尽,
我的眼泪擦不乾净,
所以绝口不提.
所以暗自反省.
终於,
我挣脱了爱情.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
有许多事,
让泪水洗过更明白.
天真如我,
张开双手以为撑得住未来,
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃.
把爱,剪碎了随风吹向大海.
越伤得深,
越明白爱要放得开.
是我不该,
怎么我会眷著你眷成依赖,
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害.

我剪不碎旧日的动人情怀,
你看不出来我的无奈.

...

actually dunno wat to write de..feel like long time din blogging d..2mrw I'm going to sit for my final exam lo..1st paper,hehe..yesterday keng kai vf yuan,she accompany me at home coz no one at home..thinking bc when I'm in KB,many things happen..din study,keep on thinking wat m I suppose to do..how to walk my way?even till now,still blur..nvm,everything gonna be fine,mandy..haha!well well..I'l never be alone,feel so lucky actually got frens..10s u gals..wateva happen,u al wil still by my side..I wanna 10s to dar too..10s for loving me..I'l make up my mind 1day.. ",) as wat yuan said,I dun like to be dependent,but I'm actually dependent..haha..soli to let u all worried alwiz..but no choice,u all hv to coz u al love me so much!haha..:p n of course I love u gals too..if not I'll not help u scold the taxi driver,so funny when think bc..if u al din push me away,n he still mumbling,I think I'll fight vf him..haha..wat u think?no la..I'm not so fierce de..dunno how is the taxi driver?kena "chao yao yu" d?m I too kejam?this is wat I said..dun eva "step on my tail", I'l not let u go so easy..sound like so dangerous hor,but if u din believe,try n c lo..haha..

Feel the love..

I said I'm better d in my latest blog,but the next day I admitted!Haha..after 4days in hosp,I'm now temporarily stay at my aunt hse,hv to go bc hosp follow up,now under medication.When looking back,I really don't know how can I stand the pain for 1week then only decided to admit,although doc ask me to admit but I'm such a pure cow,still can stand for 1more day,after my mum,Kiong ask me to admit then only decide to admit.Ah Zee,Mayture,Xaioxaio,Yuan,Kim,Tzy Feng n Yen accompany me to hosp.So gam dong when saw 2cars come n fetch me..in hosp,really scared,coz nurse will help me put in urine bag so that I pass urine by using the bag.Heard my frens said it is damn pain when putting in the bag,as usual nurse gv me an injection,the help me wash the wound.Wah,damn pain when the nurse help me wash it.I try to stand the pain,but it's really pain!I SHOUT,hAND KEEP ON FINDING THINGS TO GRAP,lastly I pain till CRY!The most painful I ever had,although I hv been stand the pain for one week la..gila punya orang..after wash the wound,the other nurse help me to put in the tube,haha..I din feel pain d,"ma" d..everyday nurse will help me wash 3times per day,oh my god!When I kno I hv to suffer 3 times each day,really scared!My parents come from KT n KB 2nd day to look after me.Kesian my frens,hv to rush here n there to take care of me,n yuan overnite in hosp to accompany the 1st nite.Slowly,many ppl around me get to kno I get admitted,they come to hosp..I'm still ok if din wash the wouind but after wash the wound I hv no energy d coz waste so much energy to shout,even cry n "fa dou",this is wat happen although I taken pain killer.Still remember "AV" frens heard my shout when they visited me.So soli to scared them..I hv to put aside my studies to rest in hosp,no choice..actually I'm worried,coz I hv to pass up the proposal of my final year project n there are so many assignments hv to do.My best frens,wei n se rush to hosp too when they get to kno from Phing.Actually v hv make appointment so v can meet on Sat for shopping n gathering between three of us,but at last v meet up in hosp,is oso a kind of gathering I think..haha..My aunts,uncs,cousins all went to visit me.,tell u all truthly,although I'm suffering in hosp,hv mild phobia towards nurses,but I do feel lucky to hv loves n cares from my dearest parents n families,frens..although the hosp is so far from their hse,but still take some times to visit me..I can feel the pain from my mum when she saw me cry when wanna sit bath in the dark purple color medicine,she is beside me to accompany me when the nurse apply wash n apply medicine for me.She hugs me,let me grap her although I try not to.. This is so called "Mother"..I love u,mum..my hp non stop ringing,from my grandma,aunts,unc,frens..A word.."lucky gal"..n 10s to all my frens!Really 10s!Dun wori,as wat u all said,u all miss the happy me,actually me too..I'll become better n better..every1 is waiting for me to go shop!Haha..